I'm Really Sorry 🫶

• Hey my babyyy

  
  
  Baby… kal ka jo hua na, uske liye I’m really really really sorry 🥺 Mujhe pata hai tu samajh gaya tha… aur honestly, thank you so much for that bacha. Tu itna understanding hai na, woh mujhe aur bhi emotional kar deta hai. Phir bhi I just need to say all this properly, kyunki jo feel ho raha hai woh batana zaroori hai. Main sach mein message karne wali thi kal… like I was thinking about you the whole time. Par beech mein kaam aa gaya, phir uske baad mom ne mera phone le liya. Main literally kuch kar hi nahi paayi. Aur us time pe bas ek hi thought aa raha tha baar baar ki tu wait kar raha hoga… aur main wahan nahi hoon. It felt so wrong, baby. Aur tu… tu toh normally late tak rukta bhi nahi hai, I know that. Phir bhi tu mere liye 5 baje tak jagta raha… woh bhi jab tu already bimar hai 😭 bacha tu aisa kyun karta hai apne aap ke saath… mujhe sach mein bohot bura lagta hai. I wish main wahan hoti, tujhe force karti sone ke liye, ya at least ek message bhej paati ki “so ja baby, I’ll text you.”
• Tu itna effort daalta hai na… aur jab main uss moment pe nahi aa paayi, it just makes me feel so guilty. Not because tu samjha nahi—because tu samajh gaya. Aur phir bhi tu wait karta raha… that matters to me a lot. Par ek baat dhyaan se sun na, please… kabhi bhi, kabhi bhi yeh mat sochna ki main tujhe ignore karti hoon ya tu important nahi hai. Tu meri life mein bohot special hai… like genuinely, bohot zyada. Main aise hi randomly disappear hone wali nahi hoon. Jo bhi ho, jitna bhi ho… I’m always going to come back to you. Mujhe pata hai kabhi kabhi tu thoda insecure feel karta hai… ki shayad main chali jaungi ya dur ho jaungi cause apan dono ek jaise he. But baby, aisa kuch nahi hone wala. Main yahin hoon. Main tere saath hoon. Aur main tujhe chhod ke kahin nahi ja rahi. Not today, not tomorrow, not kabhi bhi. Tu mera hai, aur main teri hoon… simple. I love you, bacha… like really love you. Aur yeh koi temporary ya timepass wala nahi hai. It’s real. Tu mere liye important hai, meri habit hai, meri comfort hai… everything. Ab please na apna dhyaan rakh. Tu already thik nhi hai, upar se itna late tak jag gaya… that’s not okay. Mujhe tension hoti hai tere liye. Proper rest le, paani pee, meds le agar le raha hai toh, aur jaldi theek ho ja. Me nahi chahti tu aur weak feel kare cause tu meri strength he yawrr. Aur haan… agar abhi bhi thoda sa mood off hai, it’s okay. Tu bol sakta hai, main sunungi. Tu gussa bhi ho sakta hai, main handle kar lungi. Bas aise chup mat ho ja na baby… mujhe accha nahi lagta. Main yahin hoon. Always. Har waqt. Tere liye. Aur kal jo hua… uske liye phir se sorry. I’ll make it up to you, pakka 🤍.
  
  I love you bachaww💗
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